My foots on the pedal, I have no intention to stop,
as I go faster my heart starts to drop.
I push it to the floor I’m addicted to the thrill,
excitement arises at the risk of being killed.
I take a deep breath, and slowly close my eyes, with an immature desire
that they re-open with a tragic surprise.
With the windows wide open, freezing air strikes my face, it reminds me I’m still alive,
but living without your embrace,
The increasing speed gives me a natural high to deal with the pain,
raging emotion inside of me that I can no longer contain.
This helps me cope a few seconds at a time,
because my mind’s completely twisted from all your intolerable lying.
The night sky is as dark as my heart you’ve turned black,
which is now frail and dysfunctional after your malicious attack.
Outside is dead silent as I foolishly steer,
so I blast the music to hide the sound of my tears.
No one’s around to help in the AM so early,
its the easiest way to the gate ever so white and pearly.
I cast no shadow with acceleration through these winding empty streets,
I’ve accepted defeat at the hands of this cowardly cheat.
Carrying on with no clear destination in sight,
I no longer have the energy to battle this demanding fight.
Dent this metal, shatter this glass, give me the force of this air,
all this to break free from the agony of despair. 
I can’t handle this impatience loaded with strong irritation,
the thought of being lifeless fills my soul with fascination.
My awareness doses off did I crash, have I died?
They told me get over it, I told them I’ve tried.
I finally did it I’m gone I’ve escaped life’s brutality!
Then I realize I’m not, I wake up, I’m alive, back to reality. 

-sera julia